Rain

It rained terribly today. The wether was also cold. Janer said she can't live without snnshine. I think it's true, for the happy girl like her really has to be supported by sun. I felt tired today because I had the first class and after school I still have to do the tutoring job. There's also a nice thing, I have two demovracy class off. The teacher went abroad.

Is busy life equal to substantial life? Sometimes I felt upset when time passed and I didn't do anything. In that cases I would like to do something meaningful. So, I will put a lot of things into my schedual list. Then I will be very tired and expect the weekend everyday. After those tiring jobs I will start to relax and again do nothing and just let time pass. After those vicious circles, I fianlly start to ponder what the ideal life style is. In the past, I meant in my high school years, though I was tired everyday and had a lot of tests and under a great pressure, I still felt satisfied everyday. I won't think of escaping from the class because in the school I really felt very happy.

It is the bad weather that made me full of pessimistic thought. I think I will never be able to live in Northern Europe.